Never Wanted ::

I sit here gazing at the shining stars,
I sit here thinking of my shattered dreams,
I watch the world through broken eyes
and feel it all with my dirtied skin.

I think of how it should have been,
sugared dreams and candied hopes,
A million and one promises spoken,
A million and one dreams fulfiled.

I feel you here, you feel so cold,
you made me this way,
so locked away from it all,
I think of how it was.

darkened dreams and useless hopes,
A million and one promises broken,
A million and one lies you spilled.

You lied to me when I wanted love,
you made me feel so used, you made me feel abused,
you made me feel dirty,
though I never did anything wrong.

I look back now as tears stain my face,
A silent collection of torn memories,
A dark little cloud in the back of my head,
A recollection of every word you said.

I look back now as anger builds inside,
the way you made me feel,
how you dirtied my skin and burned my flesh,
I cannot believe I came so close to you.

I never wanted this,
I never wanted to feel this way,
I never wanted to hate another,
I never wanted it to end like this.

I sit here gazing at the shining stars,
I sit here thinking of my shattered dreams,
I watch the world through broken eyes
and feel as the knife pierces my rotting heart.